ChiuuChiuu
I made a twitter
Moved to Scotland
It's been a while since I've written a journal entry here, huh?
I recently moved to Scotland and I'll be living and studying here until Christmas. It's been quite stressful and weird so far. I've never travelled alone and I'm kind of lost and lonely at the moment. I've never been this far away from my family and friends. Currently I'm feeling anxious about several things like course work and making new friends. I've never realized before how much of an introvert I am but now I'm really feeling it... I want to be on my own a lot in order to get relaxed but at the same time I feel pressured to make lots of new friends etc. And I do get so lonely too, even though at times I just want to be alone... It's weird, I don't know what to do.
I have no idea how much time I'll have for art this autumn and my university studies are getting pretty busy even back in Finland but I always try to make time for it because drawing and painting makes me happy and allows me to spend time just by myself. Enjoying the shows I love and making fan art gives me so much positive energy.
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My grandfather died 4 days ago and I'm still trying to wrap my head around the whole thing... I'm not in my hometown right now (I heard the news via phone, which sucks but luckily my roommate was there for me) but I'm going soon. I'm sure I'll get some closure and actually realize the situation once I'm there with my family. I did go see him at the hospital a week before he passed and I could sort of sense that it was the last time I'd be seeing him, I was very upset that night and cried. I haven't cried now, which is weird but again, I think I just haven't grasped the situation yet. We don't know yet when the funeral will be but I'm sure at the very least there I will finally grasp the situation. Now it just feels so... surreal.
Luckily my friends and family have been very supporting. It's been good just talking to my family on the phone and know that they're grieving too and I'm not alone.
My grandfather was 88 years old and up until this year he was quite healthy. He only had to spend a lot of time in the hospital during these last 6 months and even then he was able to be home between hospital periods and we're thankful for that. He was very hard-working and active so he didn't like spending time just laying in the bed. He stayed quite alert until the end so we're all thankful for that as well. The thing he feared the most was that he'd have to move away from his and my grandmother's house (which he built) and go live in a nursing home. He also feared that he would start to loose his memories and knowledge but that didn't really happen to an extreme extent, he was very 'himself' till the very end. We're sad but we're happy and thankful he lived such an eventful and long life. It's kind of weird being sad and thankful at the same time...
We miss him a lot though. I've never seen my grandmother the way she is now. But she said she knew this would happen very soon. She's a strong woman so with our support she'll be fine... in time.
Anyway, just an update to what's going on in my life. Other than this sad news, I'm just busy with school and Christmas preparations. At least I have things to do and they give me something else to think about.
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DeviantArtist Questionnaire
How long have you been on DeviantArt?
3 years.
What does your username mean?
Nothing, it's just something I came up with when I was like 14. I wanted something that sounded cute.
Describe yourself in three words.
Sensitive, a daydreamer, a thinker.Are you left or right handed?
Right handed.What was your first deviation?
What is your favourite type of art to create?
Traditional watercolor art.If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?
Photography.What was your first favourite?
I can't remember...What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?
Hmm... Probably digital art. Or photography.Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?
If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?
How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?
I don't think she's on here anymore but I met my friend Margaret here and we became very good friends. We messaged and e-mailed each other a lot and she helped me get through some hard times with her support and wise advice. She also encouraged me when I was unsure about my art and she's always been so kind and wonderful to me, my life wouldn't be the same if I hadn't met her. I'm very thankful to have met her here.
Also, really every person who comments and encourages me when it comes to art impacts my life because it keeps me going.
What are your preferred tools to create art?
My tablet, pencils, brushes, watercolors, markers...What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?
Our summerhouse, it's a magical place.What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?
I have so many great memories... One of my favorites is when Rocioo and I collaborated to create these:
